The Tabernacle

Creating 'spaces' to experience the presence of God


December 4th, 2017

Everybody wants it.

In today’s world courage is often linked to Heroics. We think of an individual who puts their life on the line to valiantly save another. But the courage I’m talking about is ordinary courage. It’s the courage that puts our vulnerability on the line.

In our world that is so shame driven that we are unconscious to it, hussle for worthiness goes to a whole other level at Christmas time.

Ordinary Courage is putting your hand up in class & saying “I’m lost. I don’t understand.” Ordinary Courage is saying “I don’t know”, “I am not ready yet to take on that aspect of the job, I am still needing time to learn this one.”

These are some of the bravest things we can ever say & do.

Ordinary courage is willing to risk being disappointed & it is willing to risk trusting again. Ordinary courage confronts suspicion & moves past it with faith, choosing uncertainty & honor rather than the barren bastions of control & predictable outcomes.

Ordinary courage is one of the most frequent commands in the Bible, used over 300 times in the bible.

But courage is never courage without vulnerability. Think of a time when you were courageous. Could you be courageous & not be vulnerable? When this question was asked recently to the highest level Military Generals & Commanders at West Point in the USA, they could not think of any occasion when courage did not demand vulnerability from them or their troops.

Courage is risk. It challenges our notions of control & our emotion of fear. So does vulnerability.

Dr Brene Brown says. “It is our inability to feel vulnerability that makes us weak.”  The Hebrew word for courage is chazaq & it means “to show oneself strong”. Strong is not armouring up with emotionless perfection to ‘get her done!’. To show ourselves strong is show our hearts, our true selves. This is ordinary courage & it in turn demands in us compassion & empathy, the twin arms of fierce fearless love.

2000 years ago, compassion moved heaven not judgement & courage walked the earth. Jesus bearing the heart of God for connection, showed himself strong with the might of courage’s true measure, vulnerability, & conquered the world.

God is birthing a whole new revelation of grace & love. And it will be wrapped in the arms of ordinary courage. You have it.

Live Courage.


The Social Cancer of our day

November 21st, 2017

“Don’t copy the behaviour & customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is GOOD & pleasing & perfect.”
Romans 12:2

Do you know what are the behaviours & customs of this world? WHY EVEN CARE?

Ironically, the Business world is studying very carefully your behaviours & customs. Google & YouTube can even predict them! Crudely put, you are being studied because ultimately you have needs & needs = money = profit = happiness & worth. Or so they say. We are built for meaning & significance. We have worth & value, & the world knows it.

Do you?

We are now on the other side of the tipping point that happened this month. There is a weightiness to this time we live in, & everyone is sensing it. Politicians, Social Scientists, Prophetic leaders, Teachers, Musicians & Artists are all speaking about it.

Do you know what is God’s GOOD will for you in this weighty hour?

I want to encourage you today.

I believe from all the research that is coming out from so many different sources right now, we are living in a SHAME based culture. The behaviours & customs that are being evidenced right now are the outcomes of what I call the SOCIAL CANCER of our day, SHAME.

The world is diseased with SHAME & it is fatal. I submit that if we do not arrest this disease, it will be the end of our destinies, organisations, & our very civilisation. Right now I believe this to be the no 1. reason taking out so many Churches & individuals.

Shame has a story. Shame has a narrative. It is a narrative that can be CHANGED! But we must be willing to hear the story. Emotion is the way to that narrative.

Again one of the biggest concerns & focus in Business & Education right now is around helping people develop a value, respect & maturity in their emotions. We call this emotional literacy.

Shame is an emotion & experience. Shame says “You are bad”, “Who do you think you are?”, “you are not _____ enough.”  It erodes our identity &  suggests our behaviours are our identity. It has the same impact on the brain as trauma. And it was all over the first moments of Adam & Eve’s story.

This is its narrative.. “I will reindentify you with your worst day, worst choice, worst actions.” It attacks our creativity, our lovability & our divinity.

Even right now as you read these words, you probably are experiencing that emotion. Speak the word SHAME, & it typically triggers shame. But the inverse is also true, speak the word SHAME & it dies.

Every morning we wake up & armour up. The world is a tough place. Life has its moments of grabbing you by the scruff of the collar & yelling in your face, “I am serious. What will you do with the time you have!”

And so in SHAME based cultures, we armour up with fear, blame, disconnection, perfectionism, comparison, competition & slander. All of these are ways to off load pain & the discomfort of believing the social narrative that you are bad & not _____ enough.

The world begins to transform us with this thinking. Recent Sociological research under Dr Brene Brown has discovered that when SHAME is running the narrative of the day, the behaviours & customs are addiction, aggression, abuse, suicide, eating disorders, bullying & violence.

Who we should fear & who is to blame is the strongest narrative of SHAME’s story. Every morning every newspaper & news show centres around these two questions. Every day in our family homes, these two questions pop up.

The power of the Sovereignty of Jesus is that He put SHAME on the cross. The whip of mockery, His body took. This was the human cost of taking our shame & covering us with His love & healing. When we receive Jesus & do this for each other, it is transforming. Darkness trembles. Dignity is restored.

The greatest transforming moments of my life have been when I encountered the narrative of honor & love that covered my imperfections, my dances with shame, rather than exposing it, punishing it, disassociating from it or slandering it.

There is nothing more amazing than being around those who do not think according the pattern of this SHAME world, who have been healed & work hard at resilience to this social cancer.

Jean Vanier in his book Becoming Human, says it this way. “We can bring each other to birth as we respect & love one another & as our value is revealed to us through the love of others.”

This is why I care.

I have seen it.

And it changed me forever.




If this blog has stirred or inspired you to pursue more about how you can get free of this social cancer, check out our Living Courage & Creating Great Relationships courses. Get some friends together & go after more!

Tipping Point

November 17th, 2017

This morning the words of this song kept coming, “Day and night let incense arise.” It’s a reference to Revelations 8:5 about the prayers of the saints.

I keep hearing over and over, pray! Pray while making coffee. Pray while driving. Pray while gardening. And pray WITH THANKSGIVING! Thanking God is prayer and it is the function that cultivates joy. Joy is not an emotion that comes from circumstances, it is a skill. Skills need to be developed.

Intimidation, grief or inadequacy are about in the atmosphere. November has been by many prophetic voices called a ‘tipping point’ month. And haven’t we seen that in many nations! This is a significant time in a significant month for what God is doing. Don’t be fooled, intimidation, grief and inadequacy are NOT you! It is in the atmosphere and it wants to sabotage all God is doing and stirring within and around you and in your nation.

Zechariah 4:10 was a scripture God took me to this morning.

“For who has despised the day of small things? For these seven REJOICE to see the plum line in the hand of Zerubbabel.”

Don’t despise this turning point day. To despise is to shame! Shame says “I am not enough. Heck I’m a looser.” It reidentifies us. Shame is not worthy of you! Rejoice! Pray with THANKSGIVING! There is so much to be thankful for with JESUS! Remember JESUS! Remember!

The power of regret. Living real.

November 8th, 2017

1924 Paris Olympics. Eric Liddell is selected to run the 100m for England. Upon arriving in Paris, Eric is informed that his race is to be run on a Sunday. Joy turns to crisis. Sunday is God’s day & therefore a day of rest. This is a value he can not compromise. He can not run. With no possibility of changing the date of the race, Eric finds himself in the stands sitting next to his brother watching the final. Just as the runners line up, his brother turns to him & says, “Any regrets Eric?” Eric’s response is stunning. He replies, “Regrets yes, doubts no.”

As we chose to live courageously, the most meaningful things in life will always be on the other side of fear & challenge our values to the very limit. Fear influences us to a lesser risk, to living small especially with God. This is where the power of regret can be a positive thing in our stories.

Regret is a powerful emotional reminder that change & growth are required. Research has found that regret is a function of empathy & calls us to courage & learning. It’s a fair but tough teacher. Regret’s pathway leads us to wisdom if we will walk it.

Emotions are opportunities for intimacy. They are a gateway to building emotional connection and trust. They are not a waste of time or dangerous but a God build part of how we connect with Him & each other.

Because of its power, regret has the same impact on our souls as bitterness. The bottom line is that loving God’s presence is an invitation to growth. If we choose not to grow & learn, but opt out, abort a moment of opportunity or disconnect from the truth, we miss out on so much. For sure regret is a hugely difficult emotion to digest, but what is worse, fear & doubt having the final say.

Eric’s Olympic Games had regret, but no doubts & because of his commitment to courage, he ended up taking away the gold medal in the 400metres.

Don’t be afraid of regret. Be afraid of doubt. Live Courage. Live faith. That’s being real.

Vulnerability, Compassion & Light-Horsemen changing the world

October 31st, 2017

I believe vulnerability & compassion can change the world. I also believe that these are the foundations for powerful intercession that moves heaven like nothing else does.

Today 100 years ago, 800 Australian Light-horsemen charged Beersheba in Israel, armed with vulnerability & the tangible compassion of God’s heart, took in a day what the British Army had been trying to do for weeks with thousands of men.


“Kings of the Feathers” these Light-Horsemen were known as & history now declares that “the fall of Beersheba swung the battle tide against the Turks in Palestine; and changed the history of the Middle East.” This moment opened the way to Jerusalem & a short moment late on December 9, 1917, the Turks surrendered Jerusalem to the Allies. The 10th Light-horsemen were the first mounted troops to enter the city.

Vulnerability, that one thing we all look for in others but are most hesitant to offer ourselves, surrounded this day. Vulnerability has been defined in recent research as risk, emotional exposure & uncertainty. But it is only in this type of soil that courage grows.

It was later told that an Australian General had in the context of his personal relationship with God received a dream where God gave him the strategies for this charge on Beersheba.

Never underestimate the power of God to communicate His compassion for mankind! His compassion knows no bounds or limitations. And His compassion always has sat in vessels of vulnerability.

Out of dreams & intercession, came the plans for victory.

We are in a season right now, where there is a gentle but clear invitation to intercession. Intercession has always preceded great moves of God’s compassion & Presence.

Intercession is about relationship, about connection. Intercession is a means of connection between God & people. Connection doesn’t exist without giving & receiving. Giving & receiving are fundamental needs of our humanity & of our vulnerability.

Intercession is not about telling God what He should do, it is about giving Him space & receiving His heart, His Presence, & out of that we then declare what Heaven wants on earth. These declarations attract & release angelic movements & assignments. For the Australian Light-Horsemen are not the only Kings of the Feathers!

Ministries, Churches, families, individuals who base themselves in prayer, are the ones God is moving strongest through in this hour, for they believe this is where victory plans are received. After 20 years in Christian ministry, this is still our most treasured space & value. In the heart for His presence, intercession happens & they prophecy what will be. This is God’s protocol. He does nothing unless He reveals His secrets to His servants. (Amos 3:7)

God used one of the smallest, newest, vulnerable nations of the world, Australia who was but 15 years old then, to bring Jerusalem back into the hands eventually of Israel & thereby fulfilling a prophecy of Isaiah who 20 centuries before declared Israel would be birthed in a day.

Today October 31, known for other celebrations, we remember what God did. We remember & shout His praises, His victory that sat on the vulnerability & intercession of His prized possession, humanity.

Today, your vulnerability & your heart of compassion matters. Rested in intercession, you can change the world. Seize this season of heaven’s heart, for battle plans of victory are being released.

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Surviving change well

October 24th, 2017


In a season of accelerated change, tension in normal. In the change we are being given an amazing opportunity to practice honor. Honor says “I will celebrate what you are and not stumble over what you are not.”

There is a tremendous invitation in the atmosphere right now to stumble with offence and off load discomfort and confusion through slander. Slander is a false way of connecting, & some of the most debilitating slander we can do is on ourselves!

The great tragedy of slander is that it stops us from owning our story. As we own our story we get to write it. When we don’t own our story, we hand it over to others to write. This is the misfortune of slander.

Slander is not that way of honor but the outworking of shame. It is in effect saying “I am feeling bad and deep down I believe I am not enough, therefore to make me feel better, I will prove you also are not enough.”

Honor sees the Jesus in another and calls this out. To love his presence is to see His Presence in others. As a people of God, this is a way we can fix our eyes on Jesus. Choose to see Him in others! Love covers. Love covered us while we were still sinners.

If you have a concern about another, get your courage and honor on and go and talk to them, not about them. Slander is below our dignity. Shame is below our dignity. Honor is who we are! Honor is who you are!

Papa God may a new revelation of our worthiness for honor wash over us as we navigate change. Papa God forgive us where we have partnered with slander & shame of ourselves & then of others. We repent of participating with something that is below our dignity & we humbly receive the honor you have shown us especially in Jesus. We receive & honor the blood of Jesus that makes us clean & restores the truth of our identity as a precious, worthy of honor & dignity child of God. We forgive those who have slandered us & we declare over them blessings & honor in extravagance today. Thank you your receive & value our pain & disappointment as we hand it to you now. Thank you for your love & great compassion that will heal our hearts. Thank you for empowering us to own our stories & love ourselves and others as we do that in these times of change. We love you Jesus.

Courage.. Resilience.. Not projection!

October 9th, 2017

“We need more people who are willing to demonstrate what it looks like to risk & endure failure, disappointment, & regret – people willing to feel their own hurt instead of working it out on other people, people willing to own their stories, live their values & keep showing up. We need these folks leading, modelling & shaping culture in every capacity.” Dr Brene Brown

I was reflecting on this morning. I believe we are in a season of honor resilience right now. In other words this season, is an invitation to honor people, honor the relationships that are important to us.

Right now the atmosphere is full of projection. The Miriam Webster Dictionary defines projection as the externalisation of blame, guilt or responsibility as a defence against anxiety. So the real fact of what we are living in today, is an atmosphere of high anxiety as change after change accelerates upon us.

Instead of finding the joy of vulnerability & honouring the value of another human being, projection off-loads our discomfort, pain & responsibility onto others. It is a way of painting another of the very thing we are wrestling with.

Courage stands tall & says I am not afraid to own my story, my vulnerability, my humanness, my honor. HONOR brings the truth of who I AM to you. Vulnerability is the way that truth is transferred.

Projection is also defined as the act of throwing or thrusting. How often do we all do that? “I’m uncomfortable. I’m stressed. I’m tired, so you are at fault because… & therefore you must….” Instead vulnerability which is risk, emotional exposure says, “I’m feeling stressed & tired & having a challenge managing my work load, season, I need…”

This is courage. This is leadership . This is honouring yourself & honouring others around you. This is the dignity of the human spirit. I bless you with courage today! Research has conclusively found that the ultimate measure of courage is vulnerability. It’s a practice! God bless you as you practice courage & honor today! This is truely who you are!

Day of the Father

April 4th, 2017
Received 17/03/17 by Helen Goatley
“There is coming now a new move & this new move will be of my presence as Father. What will wash across these southern shores is a new revelation & encounter of sons and daughters with their Father God. It will not be like past waves of my Fathering presence – it will be new and fresh and different. For a new generation has come to time and it is a new day. For theirs now is a glorious encounter after glorious encounter with the love of the Father. Many upon many will find their way home now. This is the day of the Father.”

Dwarf or Brave

August 20th, 2012

I awoke early. As I lay there I found myself suddenly in a vision. I saw my hands open in front of me & sitting on my palms were two figures. On the left hand was a cowering, terrified but raging dark dwarf with whip in hand. In my right hand stood a straight, confident, fully mature man brimming with peace & boldness.

Then I heard the words,

“We know how much God loves us, & we have put our trust in His love. God is love, & all  who live in love live in God & God lives in them. As we live in God, our loves grows more perfect. Such love has no fear, because perfect love expels all fear. If we are afraid, it is for fear of punishment, & this shows that we have not fully experienced his perfect love.” (1 John 4:16-18)

Suddenly I realised what was in my hands. “Perfect love expels all fear”. Perfect doesn’t mean without err or imperfection. The word actually means completeness, maturity, man vs boy (gk: ‘teleios’). The complete, the mature have learnt to own & love their story rather than shame it or meter it out on others. Maturity has taught them to value courage and freedom that is not controlled by externals. That courage has taken them to encounters with truth, where they discover they are honourable because they have value. An encounter with the love of God always affirms their value, a value that NEVER changes because of theirs or others actions and choices.

I was mesmerised, there the mature man boldly stood on my right hand! Unintimidated. Fully Alive in Truth.

Reminds me of the one who wore the name, Jesus / Yeshua (Hebrew). He was fully God & fully man. Love looks like something & it looked like His life & death. He knew that to love was to be vulnerable & to be vulnerabie is not weak but the most accurate measure of courage.

I glanced across & there stood the twisted, raging dwarf.  This dwarf has a name. It is a greek word, ‘Kalazo’ & it means dwarf, penal infliction, torment. (1 John 4:18) Fear will always twist & fear will always reach for the intimidating whip of threat & punishment to protect & justify its cowardly position. Fear loves to mull us. Mull our identity. Mull our destiny & suffocate us with shame.

I have noticed that when fear wafts its foul stench over me, & I listen & agree to it, I take on a posture mentally, emotionally, spiritually & outwardly which is more liken to a dwarf. Ever felt that? Squashed, small, twisted by externals, not really yourself, not at all free or bold?

In contrast there is nothing more appealing, more dangerous than one who has met & dwells with perfect love. So the question is, do we “know how much God loves us, & we have put our trust in His love?” (1 John 4:16)

This is a question of relationship. Relationships require hanging out together – doing it with others. Such a strange word in this day & age when disconnect, blame & hiding are king. Yet it is the deep pain of our dwarfed souls. But doing life with others, requires of us choice, intentionally & a belief that we are worthy of love, connection & belonging. It is a commitment to ourselves & to courage.

When it is settled in us that HIS love never fails, that he never rejects us or is horrified at our mortal states, but remains bullet proof in His position FOR me, completely safe & utterly predictable towards me, I am living in who He is! So what’s settled for you? What are you living in?

God has ONLY ONE posture towards me – love. His love is a journey that concludes with a feast. He offers more. Always. Feasts in the Bible are a picture of  hospitality, significant joyous moments, & covenant. All of these remain ways today in our society of reflecting love.

When we celebrate friends coming over for a meal, when a child has a Bar Mitzvar, or an 18th & of course at a reception on the wedding day, we enjoy a feast. This is a relational thing. When a feast is reduced to function, we call it a business meeting.

This is who God is. He is into feasts! And his feasts have banners over us declaring I love YOU (Song of Song 2). He loves to celebrate us. He loves us from our fearful dwarf ways, right into a mature fully aged bold, free bride of love!

This is His ONLY posture towards you. Towards me.

I have a choice. Agree with & dress myself with love, or agree with & dress myself with fear. One diminishes me, the other builds up.  The way of love, is not for the faint hearted. It is not for a dwarf mentality. Love expels this. Either we feed from the left hand or the right.

Maturity is expensive, but so is a dwarf mentality & life!

People perfected in love, not perfected in fear, are some of the most attractive, dangerous, world changes I know. They are completely safe, completely predictable. Infused with the power of love itself, for they have settled in it & it in them! (1 John 4:16) They have only one face. The face of Jesus. And from this face they live, breathe & speak of one thing, love.

Love’s name is Jesus, God incarnate.

So what am I being perfected in?

Love or punishment? The perfect love called Jesus or the dark dwarf of fear?

It’s in your hands.

The Australian Shake…

March 22nd, 2012

As we met with some intercessors, the following impression was received. The Most High God – El Elyon – is rising up and making a way for Himself!

“The underground is stirring across this land.
As they stir, things will shake.
The ground will shake.
The heavens will shake.
The economy will shake.
Relationships will shake.
There is nothing that the power of this shaking will not touch.
But this is a shaking like none before.
This is the Australian shake.

It is the shake of the hand.
The shake of reconciliation.
The shake of a bride’s heart as she sees her bridegroom.
The shake of heart’s connecting
of meeting
Of relationship begun.
The shake of the hand.


This shake will unite not only this vast nation.
But key nations as we stand in a pivotal moment of history.
Together we will advance and lead into a way not walked before.
Together the fire of His passion,
The fire of His love will set a world ablaze like never before.
He is roaming the earth
Looking and finding his lovesick lovers
Who receive His hand,
and walk with Him. (Josh 3:3-4)
A bride prepared.
A co-heir of His son.

Such is the moment that is upon us.”

17 March 2012  – Helen Goatley

Miracle on the mountain

March 7th, 2012

A Mum at my son’s school has a 2yr old who all his life has had extreme bowel problems.

A few days ago when it looked like surgery was now the only option left, I asked to pray for Ryle.

The next day & almost daily since then Ryle has had for the 1st time in his life pain free regular bowel motion! His Mum is stunned!


There is a new link sharing supernatural miracles that God is doing. Remembering what He has done is an important aspect of strengthening ourselves in the Lord. May you be strengthened & blessed by these faith testimonies!


November 14th, 2011

image021.jpg What a brilliant time in history we are living in!

On the 11/11/11 all over the world, nations, families, communities set aside time to worship God. This is unprecedented in the history of mankind that worship to God was given on such a scale globally.

As I sat hearing Father’s heart now, He begun to speak more of the nature of this unprecedented time we are in.

As we worshipped around the world on Friday, He likened this to David dancing before the Lord with all His might as the Ark of the Covenant (the physical place God chose to dwell) entered the city of Jerusalem. (2 Sam 6)

In the New Testament, the new Jerusalem is likened to a prepared ‘bride adorned for her husband’ (Rev 21:2).

He whispered to me then when we as God’s bride dance before Him, worship Him, minister to Him, we are being prepared & preparing the way for Him to come.

Jesus is coming!

What came from this moment of dancing before the Lord, would set in motion the golden years for the nation of Israel & result in a resting place built by Solomon for God to finally live with His people & inhabit their praises.

This moment was so profound, so prophetic, for the people of Israel would now live around the presence of God. He no longer was outside the camp. He was the centre point of it! He was lifted up on one of the highest mountains of Jerusalem & would draw ‘all men to Him” (John 12:32)

Such was the ‘drawing power’ of a lifted up God & the favour He bestows on His lovers, that the Rulers of this world would come desiring what Isaiah prophetised.

“The nations shall come to your light and Kings to the brightness of your rising.” (Isaiah 60:3)

There is NOTHING more attractive, more beautiful, more stunning that His glory (this being the manifested presence of God) & His presence/glory being seen on His bride!

For what comes when He is ‘centred around’ is His glory risen on us. (Isa 60:1) The revealed presence of God captivates, consumes, makes sick with love. In this sickness it impossible for many to function & operate in a normal way. They are undone, longing for Him alone, dripping with Him.

And this attracts. This romances. This awakens something in others & they are drawn.

But another thing happened in this moment. “As the Ark of the Lord came into the city of David, Michal the daughter of Saul looked out of the window & saw King David leaping & dancing before the Lord, & she despised him in her heart.” (2 Sam 6:16)

Michal stumbled in her heart. The Hebrew word used here is ‘bazah’ meaning to disesteem, dishonour, distain. Her stumbling was because David “revealed himself before the eyes of His servants.” (2 Sam 6:20) This was unprecedented!

He broke the rules she had. The Pharisaical, Religious Spirit loves rules above freedom, especially when it comes to worshipping God! A free worshipper of God is terrifying to a Spirit of Control & beautiful to those chained to slavery.

Jesus is coming! God is making himself present more & more! Can we recognise when HE turns up or will be stumble over what His ‘David’s’ are not doing?

Our ability to honor what another carries in God, directly determines what we can receive. Michal stumbled over what David was not doing, & missed what He was carrying…. the Presence of the living God!

The consequence of this for Michal was barrenness. (2 Sam 6:23) Dishonour closes the door to receiving, evoking emptiness & desolation.

So much hinges on our ability to recognise the presence of God!

May the “eyes of your heart be enlightened, that you may know what is the hope..” (Eph 2:18)

Bill & Beni Johnson prophesied in Melbourne Australia last year that this next move of God would be about the presence of God. Can we recognise & respond to what others carry of God’s presence or will we stumble over what they are not? This is the preparation of a bride being adorned for her husband.

Many last week danced before the Lord. He is coming in & will forever change the tilt of our centre point. This is an epic transition! His glory will cover the earth!

My worship to you

November 11th, 2011

And so this moment has been visited upon me again.


Here, I have come to lay it all down at the feet of the ONE.

He has beckoned me again.

Beckoned me to surrender ALL,




This is a sacred, hallowed place.

A place of great tenderness,


& trust.


In so many ways, this is what holiness looks like,

at least in my journey, my story.


This is abandoned worship… abandoned living.


A lifestyle of consecutive moments where what is precious, what is dear, what is loved greatly in my heart,

is offered & laid down at His feet.

In this sacred moment

I relinquish what I grew to love, gave in sacrifice for…

to HIM.


And today on this day of global worship, this is my worship.


All He has given me, I give to Him.

And I trust Him again.


And He begins again to steal my heart away.


This is the dance

the romance.


This is my song of worship to you today, my Jesus.

You have my ‘YES’ again




anytime. Lord I am willing.


You have my ‘Yes’ again.

This is my worship to you, the fairest of them all.


November 11th, 2011

This morning I awoke aware of these lyrics echoing over & over again in my spirit & mind.

“All you ever wanted was my affection

All you ever wanted was love from me & just sit here at your feet. “

(Arms wide Open by Misty Edwards)

As the sun rises on this 11/11/11, I sit with the deep longing, the deep realisation of these words. These are the pained words of a lovesick bride who’s heart He has stirred & awakened. Who’s heart He has begun to steal again.

The awakened heart carries an ache, a longing for Jesus. It is filled with a heavy simple love and adoration for Him alone. A building hunger. Sometimes unable to eat nor sleep. Often finding the normal stuff excruciatingly boring. Crying out for His beauty night and day, gloriously heavy in desire for more of Him.

Dripping with Him.

And this is all He ever really wanted…

On this day of worship globally, may He awaken & stir up love… for Him again. For a lovesick bride worships from a whole other place!

As you read these words, may He stir up such a longing & hunger in you again. I bless that in you today.

“For love is as strong as death, jealousy as cruel as the grave. Its flames are flame of fire,

A MOST FIERCE flame.” Song of Songs 8:6


Exciting week of God moving powerfully

October 29th, 2011

Camping around His Presence!!!

October 12th, 2011


Feast of Tabernacles (Sukkot in Israel) begins sundown today!

Time of joy & worship in Israel when they remember God’s kindness & faithfulness in the wilderness reaffirming their trust in Him. It was during this time that they lived in Sukkah’s, tents or booths also known as Tabernacles. But it wasn’t just the people of Israel who lived in these tabernacles, God himself chose to dwell in a Sukkah. Such is God’s pursuit of us, that the King of the Universe, chose to live in a tent!

The picture here is outstanding! A nation of people ‘camping out’ around the presence of God who camped with them!

The people of God on a journey! This was infact the definition Vatican 2, came up with in the 1960’s for Church… people of God on a journey.

And we do it best, when we are camped around Him, around His Presence!

All nations are called to worship the King, the Lord of Hosts at this time! (In Zech 14:16-17)

Rain is the prophesised result of this time of worship. (Zeph 14:17) It was at this Feast Jesus declared, He was the water which we could drink of & be satisfied!

For sometime now & especially during this incredible time of Feast of Tabernacles, I contemplate the question… at what point in Church History did we stop camping out around His Presence & begin ‘camping’ around sermons?

I invite you to take a time over these next 7 days & ‘camp out’ around Him in worship!

For more information, check out this brilliant website by Biblical teacher Ray Vander Laan who passionately loves Jesus & in doing so has studied under 5 different Rabbis in Israel to understand Jesus the Jew more!

Jewish Feasts | That the World May Know


September 25th, 2011

One conversation. One topic. One thing.

Nothing else matters.

Abandoned to Him.

He is my very breath.


September 5th, 2011

“So here I am again. Wasted.

Wasted over you

Poured out over you

You’re Beautiful!

In all the ways I could be used,

I could be valued

I could be seen.

Instead, the preciousness of my life

is ‘spent’



served upon you,

Beautiful one!

Extravegant is my gift – it’s all I have,

my life


all for you.

I am a waste

my talents

my training

my intellect

my love..

a waste…

Over you.

There is a price to pay in this day for such a gift,

such a choice.

I pay it with the one thing that is most dearest to me,

my heart – the throne of all my affections.

What outrageousness!

What apparent craziness!

But you have my yes.

This is my yes.

What will be the measure by which my life will be valued?

What will be the point of my days?

Only heaven’s summary is valid now.

Heaven has been given my life, my days, my yes.

Wastefulness on earth

priceless in heaven.

Sacrificing the temporary for the eternal.

So here I am again

and I see your face, you’re beautiful!

I am yours




Etchings from this sojourner called like Moses to “Arise, take your journey before the people.” (Deut 10:11)

Time of His eyes

August 29th, 2011

Today on the calender marks a new moon. It is the end of one cycle & the beginning of a new. The effects of this day will have far reaching consequences. Even the tides of the sea will shift because of it.


What can come for all of us is one of the most amazing times in God. I submit to you that this is a time of His eyes.

Next month, the nation of Israel will be celebrating Rosh HaShanah. This is the start of their new year. God calls this time the Feast of Trumpets. From now until the next full moon, trumpets & shofars (ram’s horns) are commonly heard every morning in Israel.

This is a time of preparation, a time of yearning.

Within one month of the Feast of Trumpets, the Feast of Atonement (Yom Kippor) & Feast of Tabernacles (Sukkot) is celebrated. This time is all about relationships.

We have all experienced that moment when the face of someone we love appears & the immense value we place on that relationship attracts our attention & suddenly diverts our priorities. Relationship creates access.

There are 7 feasts in the Bible which God calls His. (Lev 23;2) The Hebrew word for feasts is ‘mo’ed’ meaning appointed, fixed time or season, marriage. These are seasons where the natural realm alines in a specific way with the realm of God. They are points of access to a deeper love with God.

John, a follower of Jesus known as the one “Jesus loved” (John 13:1) had such a powerful encounter with the manifest presence of God during one such feast that it overtook him physically. (Rev 1:17)

John says that “He was in the Spirit on the Lord’s day & heard behind a great voice as of a trumpet.” (Rev 1:10) We are given the time indicator here of ‘the Lord’s day’, also known as the Feast of Atonement.

As soon as John hears the ‘great voice as of a trumpet’, he has an incredible vision of the ‘Son of Man’, Jesus. John is awed by the face & eyes of someone who loved him (Rev 1:14). Never underestimate the potential of an encounter with the presence of God especially during His ‘fixed times’.

There is something in this season like at no other time. His face is turning. His eyes of love are burning, longing for us!

Love’s invitation

August 9th, 2011

It is with pleasure that I introduce to you a dear friend, who upon being consistently in the private place with Jesus her lover, has offered to share some of this journey with you. May you be blessed as you marinate in these words, images & invitation, especially as the world shakes again looking for a ‘safe haven’.

Dripping Myrrh

“What is the story behind the words love, oneness, consummation?  What is the Heart whispering to the heart?

Peering into the process of learning to trust the Voice, the call, the invitation, we see a glimpse of the wooing heart of Jesus in Song of Songs 5:2-6.

There we find the beloved in her chamber, washed and reclining, at rest.  But her heart is awake and calling, “Open to me, my beloved.”

With pained reluctance, she hurls her excuses perhaps in weariness, maybe pride, or even shame.  Can a lover love so much that he withdraws in order to create true freedom in response?

Without anger, without frustration, without condescension, He, who is perfect love, paints oil on the very barrier inhibiting consummation.

Not just any oil, it is the oil of myrrh!
It’s the ointment of healing, a life preserver.

It’s the priceless balm of a burial spice.
It’s the wealth of a King mixed with the bride price.

The fragrance of sacrificial love stings, yet it leaves the residue of grace.
……the Invitation remains, but now… there is space.

This is not distance, as if abandoned, but space that punctuates freedom.

“Come unto me or stay in your chamber, either way my Heart is alive and passionate for you. You can’t alter the depth of my love.  I will endure with you until you know you are truly free to receive all of who I am, wherever you are.”

“Open to me. Come unto me.”  Can you hear it ring?  Can you feel it pull on the aches of your heart to be known, to be rescued, to be defended, to be lavished upon?
“Open to me, my perfect one!”  He’s calling…….

The invitation is the fragrance of sacrificial love!  The invitation is in the space between His advance and our response!  The invitation is to be free to be loved wholly, extravagantly, openly.

You see, beloved, Jesus means to draw you out from the chambers of your rest and into the chambers of His heart, eternal rest!  He purposes to envelop you with His waves of mercy and unconditional agape!  He desires to arrest you in the day, in the night, in the upper room, at the city gates!

There is a scandalous reality that the purity of His holy love intimately manifests in the unseen chasms of the inner being,  yet it is fully flaunted in the world.

Beloved, let Him love you in the lowliest of valleys, at the height of the heavens, at the table before your enemy, and in the secret place.  No more compartments of love!  The invitation stands for us to move from portions of love into an experience of its fullness!

He’s knocking on the door of our hearts.  He’s knocking…..not ambushing, not demolishing, but knocking.  Can you feel His gentleness?

Can you see the goodness in the freedom He offers?

Will you permit yourself to respond to love and in so doing, be free indeed?

Even the “yes” in your spirit will lead you to open the door,
and there you’ll be met by love’s oil, dripping myrrh.”

Amy Eben, Colorado USA

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